Self-doubt & a Few Video Stories
Last weekend, I spent nearly 20 hours trying to record and edit videos amidst the tremendous waves of self-doubt.
It started with the Saturday sprint session of Minimum Viable Video (a cohort-based course I am currently pursuing to use videos) where we shoot back-to-back micro-videos, preferably without any self-judgment.
I was completely blank for 20 minutes as I could not come up with anything to talk about.
“Oh come on! You don’t have anything worthwhile to say. Who is even going to listen to you?”,
said the voice of my self-doubt.
However, I decided to hit record and just started speaking whatever came to my mind.
Ultimately, I ended up recording 4 videos which proved to be a reflection of the major incidents of my 20s. Not that they were full of insights but at least I did record.
Next, I spent 2-3 hours on a cozy, rainy Sunday morning going through online video editing tutorials for DaVinci Resolve.
Again, the self-doubt spoke,
“This looks super-complicated. Videos are not your cup of tea. Stick to writing. Not that anyone reads that also but at least you can do it faster.”
So brutal, I know!
Nevertheless, I finished with the tutorials and then spent around 12-15 hours trying to edit all videos.
(You can watch the entire playlist here if you are interested. I will also share a couple towards the end of this newsletter.)
Yes, the videos looked amateur, the thumbnails were embarrassing, and I was still questioning whether I want to continue this after the course ends or not.
However, I still felt a wave of creative satisfaction.
I kinda loved the process.
This is what brings me to the video of the day.
- Self-doubt can silence your intuition.
- Loneliness is one of the greatest allies of self-doubt.
- Everyone feels self-doubt. Only those who are courageous to admit it will find the support to go past it.
- Self-doubt is really a call to self-love. (This one hit me like a brick!)
- True freedom comes when you no longer rely on your achievements to give you permission to fall in love with who you are right now.
This brings me to the first story I recorded.
This is another story about self-doubts that I faced about 7 years ago and how a chance encounter helped me overcome them.
This one is a deeply personal story about my stint with mental health and how I got okay with the idea of therapy.
It was the toughest of all videos to shoot as I did not have a lot of words to express.
If you watched any of the above videos, first of all, thank you! 🙂
Secondly, do share any feedback you might have or the kind of topics you think you would enjoy to hear me talk or write about.
This weekend, I plan to once again face some self-doubts and see if I could beat them again! 😀
That’s all from me this week, folks!
Until next time